Wednesday, August 29, 2007
It's been quite a long time since I posted last. I got so out of habit in the spring that it was hard to get back into the groove...plus I think it's harder to blog during dry, desert times...which is most of what the last several months have been for me. It's been really hard to be in the prayer room for months...just dry times where I don't feel I'm even touching the heart of God nor hearing from Him. Some days & weeks were worse than others but I think the hardest thing is just how long the desert time lasted. I am glad to be on the other side of it now. I know God did much in me during that time though I think I'm still figuring out what it all was. I'm just glad He is finally speaking to me again! It actually surprised me at first...I guess I got too accustomed to the silence. Now I can't get enough. I just don't ever want Him to stop speaking! I'm a little nervous though b/c He's been giving me lots of clues about an upcoming transition time for us...a time that begins after the baby comes until at least the first of the year. There are tons of changes ahead and it seems that our lives will not look the same, and I'm not just talking about the fact that we will be parents. God has been telling me that many of the old things that are hanging on will be cut off. I think things like Danny's thesis, our debt, his job, and my role in youth group are in that mix. I know He's going to do new things with my business and change my understanding of what Children's Ministry will look like. I am hoping that He will be tangible through all of this. I don't want to go through this without Him there. So, I'm hoping it won't be another wilderness time, though if He romances me there I know it'll be okay. ;o) I'm excited and nervous about what the near future holds for us.