Wednesday, February 14, 2007


I think I might just go crazy if I have to wait until I go into labor to determine whether I am having twins or not. My intuition says that I am. I think God told me I am but unfortunately those beautiful moments don't last in my heart as long as I wish them to. Oh, that I would not doubt and be able to ponder these things in my heart as Mary! We had an ultrasound today and there was one baby and a good heartbeat. I am only 7 weeks. Please pray for this pregnancy that it goes to term with healthy, viable, 7 lb babies. God gave me this verse after I lost Sean and I immediately understood it to mean there are some other amazingly redemptive meanings behind me having is the verse: Zechariah 9:12 Return to your fortress, O prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you. (NIV) Return to the stronghold [of security and prosperity], you prisoners of hope; even today do I declare that I will restore double your former prosperity to you. (AMP)

I need to stop worrying and searching for answers. Lord, I want to seek your heart and trust Your words. Please grant me a token of hope that I can cling to. Give me the grace of faith and hope. I pray life over my womb and Rachel & Heather's wombs as well, Lord. Open the doors for life. May Ben & Denise see a token in the natural to give them hope that their twins will be in their arms by October at the same time that our twins enter this earth. God, You've said You have a special purpose for my twins. I am clinging with all that I have to Your promises for You are faithful and true.

Thursday, February 1, 2007


Anybody have tips on how to stay awake in the prayer room. It's not a good sign when you are falling asleep reading the Word...