Be holy as I am holy...

I Peter 1:14-17

¹⁴[Live] as children of obedience [to God]; do not conform yourselves to the evil desires [that governed you] in your former ignorance [when you did not know the requirements of the Gospel].

¹⁵But as the One Who called you is holy, you yourselves also be holy in all your conduct and manner of living.

¹⁶For it is written, You shall be holy, for I am holy.

¹⁷And if you call upon Him as [your] Father Who judges each one impartially according to what he does, [then] you should conduct yourselves with true reverence throughout the time of your temporary residence [on the earth, whether long or short].

Leviticus 11:44, 19:2 - this is where it is written "You shall be holy, for I am holy." It is in the middle of the law.

Vine's says that the word here is hagios which is not an attainment but a state into which God in grace calls us. We are called to wash ourselves in the Word in order to remain free from defilement, forsake sin, and live according to Christ's example. Hagios means more than pure, sacred, or worthy..."it is characteristically godlikeness." Wow! That explains "Be imitators of Christ" so much more richly. I think this means that I am to live a holy life, one that is in agreement with Christ.

So, the question remains - is holiness a process or an immediately acquired state upon accepting the salvation of Christ? Could it be both? We are made righteous upon receiving the gift of salvation, but are we made holy? I think we frequently confuse holiness with righteousness.

1 Corinthians 1:30 (Amplified Bible)

³⁰But it is from Him that you have your life in Christ Jesus, Whom God made our Wisdom from God, [revealed to us a knowledge of the divine plan of salvation previously hidden, manifesting itself as] our Righteousness [thus making us upright and putting us in right standing with God], and our Consecration [making us pure and holy], and our Redemption [providing our ransom from eternal penalty for sin].

Consecration (holy) and righteousness are two different things. Righteousness is being brought into right relationship with God. How are we brought into right relationship? Romans 4 seems to say that faith exercised produces righteousness in our lives. Ok, so holiness is being pure and set apart unto God and righteousness is life lived in faith and unity with the heart of God.

So, the question still remains for me...if God consecrates us and gives us His righteousness then do we have to do anything or just receive and live? I don't know that I can say we just accept the gift and then just keep on going expecting to "naturally" do what's in God's heart, especially in light of verses like this one...

Daniel 11:33-35 (Amplified Bible)

³³And they who are wise and understanding among the people shall instruct many and make them understand, though some [of them and their followers] shall fall by the sword and flame, by captivity and plunder, for many days.

³⁴Now when they fall, they shall receive a little help. Many shall join themselves to them with flatteries and hypocrisies.

³⁵And some of those who are wise, prudent, and understanding shall be weakened and fall, [thus, then, the insincere among the people will lose courage and become deserters. It will be a test] to refine, to purify, and to make those among [God's people] white, even to the time of the end, because it is yet for the time [God] appointed.

Still speaking of righteousness, let's throw in another wrench...

1 John 3:7-10

7 Little children, let no one deceive you. He who practices righteousness is righteous, just as He is righteous. 8 He who sins is of the devil, for the devil has sinned from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil. 9 Whoever has been born of God does not sin, for His seed remains in him; and he cannot sin, because he has been born of God. 10 In this the children of God and the children of the devil are manifest: Whoever does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is he who does not love his brother.

Ok, so now what? He who practices righteousness is righteous just as Christ is righteous. So, in walking out our faith daily we are practicing righteousness. Then v. 9 says whoever has been born of God DOES NOT SIN and CANNOT SIN. So, is does this mean we are already holy (pure, undefiled, godlikeness)? We cannot sin if we are in Christ yet we still must practice righteousness and are commanded to be holy.

So, the question remains - are we already holy & righteous or is it a process or is it both?

Diligence - Part 1

I'm on a journey into the heart of God. I've been asking Him some big questions b/c He really convicted me one night at IHOP-FW. He told me that the following verses applied to me:

Revelation 2: 1-7

¹TO THE angel (messenger) of the assembly (church) in Ephesus write: These are the words of Him Who holds the seven stars [which are the messengers of the seven churches] in His right hand, Who goes about among the seven golden lampstands [which are the seven churches]:

²I know your industry and activities, laborious toil and trouble, and your patient endurance, and how you cannot tolerate wicked [men] and have tested and critically appraised those who call [themselves] apostles (special messengers of Christ) and yet are not, and have found them to be impostors and liars.

³I know you are enduring patiently and are bearing up for My name's sake, and you have not fainted or become exhausted or grown weary.

⁴But I have this [one charge to make] against you: that you have left (abandoned) the love that you had at first [you have deserted Me, your first love].

⁵Remember then from what heights you have fallen. Repent (change the inner man to meet God's will) and do the works you did previously [when first you knew the Lord], or else I will visit you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you change your mind and repent.

⁶Yet you have this [in your favor and to your credit]: you hate the works of the Nicolaitans [what they are doing as corrupters of the people], which I Myself also detest.

⁷He who is able to hear, let him listen to and give heed to what the Spirit says to the assemblies (churches). To him who overcomes (is victorious), I will grant to eat [of the fruit] of the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.

I cried b/c I knew it to be true. I asked God how I got to this place. This place of hardness, where I don't feel anything, especially His presence. He showed me in verse 5 - "Remember the heights from which you have fallen." I remember the beautiful times I had with God in the prayer room before I had kids, the 6 am sets, the day long times with Him, the internship, etc. "do the things you did at first" - What did I do at first, Lord? He showed me that I was no longer regularly in His Word, that I no longer fast regularly, that I pray sporadically and selfishly. So, I asked Him for a hunger for His Word. I asked to hear His voice. I asked Him how He wanted me to fast and how He wanted me to pray.

The next day, I opened up my journal to rehearse the places I had been with God and what I had done at first. I looked at where my journaling stopped - Proverbs 31:10 so I decided to start there. Wow! I'll have to post just on that verse another time but the path it led me on is the point here.

Proverbs 31:10 (Amplified Bible)

¹⁰A capable, intelligent, and virtuous woman--who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls.

I glanced through the footnotes on Proverbs 31 and that lead me to 2 Peter 1:5-8.

2 Peter 1:5-8 (Amplified Bible)

⁵For this very reason, adding your diligence [to the divine promises], employ every effort in exercising your faith to develop virtue (excellence, resolution, Christian energy), and in [exercising] virtue [develop] knowledge (intelligence),

⁶And in [exercising] knowledge [develop] self-control, and in [exercising] self-control [develop] steadfastness (patience, endurance), and in [exercising] steadfastness [develop] godliness (piety),

⁷And in [exercising] godliness [develop] brotherly affection, and in [exercising] brotherly affection [develop] Christian love.

⁸For as these qualities are yours and increasingly abound in you, they will keep [you] from being idle or unfruitful unto the [full personal] knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One).

And I realized that some things I had never noticed before. One, in order to "add to"/"develop" a trait I needed to "exercise" the current trait. Talk about "working out your salvation with fear and trembling"! Secondly, I noticed that neither faith nor virtue were the first traits. I had always heard or read those to be the starting point. But they are not the starting point - diligence is. Diligence is where it all begins.

Community

There is an ache growing inside of me. I long for community. I long to be doing life in Christ with friends. I'm not talking about once or twice a week at a church service or prayer meeting. I'm tired of going to services where I come in greet friends, talk briefly perhaps, attempt to meet with God, then leave. Are we really going somewhere together? How can we pursue God in prayer or praise, how can we say we are corporately going after God when I barely have a relationship with the people in the room? How can we pursue God together if we are not doing life together? I'm talking intimacy here. Community is about being in each other's day to day stuff. I want to daily play, talk, praise, pray, worship, eat, laugh, love, and hang out with a group of people committed to the pursuit of Jesus, of one thing, of Psalm 27:4. I really long for this. Lord, I know this is your heart too. Please make this a reality in my life!

I must post this link...

Please read...but keep in mind that God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

http://www.morningstarministries.org/Publisher/Article.aspx?ID=1000054411

Wow...it's been a really long time...

Maybe I need to start a new blog...

I've been contemplating how much my life has changed since becoming a mother. In some ways good, in some ways that I don't like (to be honest). Not that I would change being a mother or exchange a day for anything, but sometimes I miss the time I had before, especially time with God, time in the prayer room, time with people. Maybe it's my lack of discipline, maybe it's laziness, maybe it's my self-consciousness about Aiden's every move, but I seem to find it impossible to engage in the prayer room, get out of the house, or enjoy God & His Word. It's frustrating. I don't remember it being quite as difficult last year as it has been this year. I'm hoping it doesn't get worse with the new baby coming. I just don't understand God...which I know is normal and not a bad thing but sometimes it's enfuriating! He's given me assignments, dreams, knowings...and yet in doing them I seem to not just lose me (which is fine) but I risk losing Him. I don't like that. I don't like that. I really miss Him right now and I feel helpless to do anything about it. The Word is dry and He feels distant. Or is it me? Probably. So I keep going...plugging away...at what? Without oil is anything worth it?

Whoa to America

America has lost its blessing. I have lost my hope in America.

America has just:

stated that their own personal comfort is more important than the lives of millions of unborn babies

eliminated the chance for mercy

brought judgement upon herself

eliminated the chance for the states to determine their own abortion laws

elected to become a communist nation - led by a man who believes in our "civic religion" and wants to "redistribute wealth"

decided to turn its back on Israel


So, last night I was lying in bed worrying about the future for the Church when the Lord reminded me of Joshua when the angel appeared to him and he asked "Are you for us or for our enemies" and he said "neither, I am commander of the Lord's army." And then God reminded me of Joshua 1:9 - "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." I believe that we missed the open door for mercy that God was extending to us but I also know that God is sovereign (not in control but sovereign...He is all powerful but not all controlling) so He can still knock Obama down like He did Saul on the road to Damascus. He can do it if He wants so now I'm praying for the turning of Obama's heart to God. I also realized that I cannot put my trust in anything but the Lord...I know that I've said that before to myself but seriously I don't live that way. I have allowed circumstances to dictate the time I spend with God. I have made decisions b/c it seemed that things were too hard so it must not be what God wants me to do...probably the opposite is true. So, I am renewing covenant with God and committing to walking with Him. I am committing to be in the Word daily, praying daily at home AND in the prayer room. I am committing to not let the "normal life" things get in the way or be excuses for why I can't spend time with God. I need to pursue Him wholeheartedly whether or not I have a house to maintain, child(ren) to raise, ministry pursuits, or family functions...HE must be FIRST! ALL the time! I cannot risk falling back into the apathy and complacency my heart has been in up until now. I will NOT be among the "most" who fall away. I will NOT be a foolish virgin who is more concerned with the doing of things for God than she is concerned with KNOWING God. I WILL have a reservoir of oil (intimacy) for my lamp (ministry)...so my focus is maintained and I am not weary in doing good. God is my fortress, my focus, and my exceedingly great reward. There is no other lover who is worth chasing after. I want to live the Sermon on the Mount, not just preach it. Oh, Lord, help me, teach me, grow me, and give me strength to pursue you with reckless abandon and wholehearted devotion.

I feel like I should start singing that old Ray Boltz song..."I pledge allegiance to the Lamb. With all my strength, with all I am. I will seek to honor His command. I pledge allegiance to the Lamb." or the Misty Edwards song... "I pledge my allegiance to Jesus, to Jesus, and I pledge my allegiance to the Lamb...baptize my heart with Your fire, desire...Cuz I don't wanna be offended...when it's all comin' down."

provision quandries

sacrifice...

we should never have gone to the resale...or at least not bought all the toys and esp. the bike trailer...

we need to stay within our means not make the numbers reflect our current usage like gasoline...can i walk more? maybe the bike trailer will come in handy after all...

do i need to get a job? how can i make more money doing what i am currently doing or have training to do without having to pay for childcare?...

what about IHOP? i so want to be a part and i can't even seem to do part-time hours at the moment...

what can we sell or donate that will free us from debt?...

i feel like all i do is whine to You about all my financial woes. how do i live in a financially responsible fashion without that being my entire focus? how do i not let the financial issues get me down? how do i live in a place of trust that you will take care of things? when i mess up financially i suffer the consequences so i just need to learn from my mistakes and not let them get me down. i know change comes slowly but i just don't know what to do next. i feel so lost and befuddled. i just want to sit down and cry but i'm not sure that would help anything. my secondary reaction is to seek out a solution. what can i do to change things? should i get a job? though that makes financial sense on some levels i really don't feel like i'm supposed to be working outside the home. i feel my place is here yet i have no idea how to deal with the pressures from others who do not understand why i refuse to seek traditional employment. what if i pursued the dreams of my heart instead of what others told me to do. what if i work my ouaf business, work part-time in IHOP-FW, teach spanish at home (maybe even do some translation on the side), cultivate my abilities as a speaker, have lots of babies :o), and maybe even begin to write...what if i pursued those things...what would happen?

and this money business...what if this is just a momentary thing that we should not be depressed about but see it as a continual learning experience. what if that is the secret to an eternal perspective...instead of whining (navel-gazing) perhaps the eternal perspective would say "ok, so that didn't/doesn't work, let's try this..." is it merely a question of attitude? is it choosing joy and eternal glory instead of whining and complaining about how the money isn't there so i can't pursue what i want to pursue. is my attitude my own worst enemy? is it really that simple?